Friday, June 19, 2009

If Two Negatives Equal a Positive, Do Two Positives Equal a Negative?

I guess you can say I have been fooling myself into believing that I can be a positive person.

Last week, Husband and I were getting ready to leave to go somewhere. As I was walking down the steps, I started complaining about someone. I can't even remember what I was saying or who I was saying it about -- that part is immaterial to this story. Husband then comes down the step and says something like "Is there anyone you like?" I said, "What do you mean? I'm a people-person, goddammit!" (In case you missed the reference, that was me quoting "Office Space". Husband and I are movie quoters.) He replies, "No you aren't. You hate people. You only like people who are dry and sarcastic, like you."

I can't tell you how much I was offended. I mean, DEEPLY offended. Then I thought about it. Was he right?

Tuesday this week, I posted my status on Facebook as "walking on sunshine." The previous day, I had posted my status as "Ugh...Monday" and being Tuesday, I was going to be funny and write "Ugh...Tuesday" (and then actually do the same for every other day of the week) but then I stopped myself. Why don't I post something positive for a change -- you know, put some positive energy out into the universe, so that maybe I could somehow convince myself that it was going to be a GREAT DAY!

Immediately after posting, SG at Perfectly Cursed Life emails me with the question "are you serious" (those were not her exact words but that is what she meant) regarding my Facebook status. You must understand -- she knows me well. She knows I'm not exactly Ms. Positivity. So I give her my explaination. Later in the day, another friend of my posts a comment on my status -- "WTF?!" I then texted my BFF Shannon, and told her about these two incidents. She sent me a text back and said she didn't know what was funnier -- my attempt at being "positive" or the fact that two of my friends were questioning it.

I guess I should just wear my cloak of sarcasm with dignity and pride. After all, it's what makes me who I am. And in case you forgot -- "I'm a people-person, goddammit!"


Dr. Jay SW said...

I think being truly positive means not denying any part of yourself...which means allowing yourself to be negative when you feel like it instead of forcing some stupid looking smile on your face...

MyTruth0812 said...

Very profound, Dr. Jay SW! I like what you said about not denying any part of yourself. I'm going to have to remember that next time I try to fake positivity.